I hate the Buick. I hate everything about it. Okay, so maybe I really enjoy the heat that it has. It’s a lot better than the unsafe car I was driving. But, I hate how low it sits back; it makes it so I can barely see. It’s so old and bulky. It makes me almost.. angry. These are the things that went through my mind after driving my new car, a 1994 Buick LeSabre (that’s older than me!) for the first time. I had been needing a new, safer car for a while. My idea as my parents would buy me a Used Ford Escape XLT -my dream car- and I would just make monthly payments to them until I paid it off. Eventually, however, my step-dad inherited this low mileage Buick that needed minimal work done on it, from his father. Before then, Mom was considering purchasing a new car for me, but then the Buick came into the picture. Her thoughts were changed: why would we spend an obnoxious amount of money to get you a decent car that you will be paying us back for while you are at college when there is a perfectly good car sitting in the driveway? Every argument about a car always ended with this. I still had hope and continued to look online at small dealerships close by from my dream car. I showed some to Mom and asked if we could check them out and all’s I got was “oh that’s nice sweety, maybe”. But Mom never budged. I had close friends at church praying for the car problem I had, as I myself dwelled in prayer about it. Anyways.. the first time I drove the Buick was ironically to church Sunday morning- right where I needed to be after the frustrating drive there! I had tried making plans the night before so I could see what it was like driving this new-to-me car, but the just fell through. When I got to church that Sunday morning I was so angry about having to drive it because It wasn’t what I wanted. I was even trying to hold back tears
As we began practice for worship, I noticed grumpy I was. So I prayed that God would take this grumpiness away and that I could find peace in his presence through this situation. I meditated on 2 Corinthians 4:18 “so look to what is unseen rather than seen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.” I knew this car problem was temporary, but my God is eternal. As we played through the songs God showered me what a blessing it really is to even have a car that works. “This is amazing grace”, “Your grace is enough”, “There is no one higher”, these became more than just song lyrics to me, they became my praise. Isaiah 55:9 says “As the Heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts higher than your thoughts”. It wasn’t in God’s plan for my life for me to get a new Ford Escape right now, but to drive the Buick. Since his ways are higher than my ways I must submit to God and my parents by being thankful and obedient by driving the Buick. Job 22:21 says to submit to the Lord and prosperity will come. Habakuk 2:3 says it will come in his time.
So rather than taking this “incontinence” as a burden, I will take it as a blessing.